Don’t Let Go | bowstrung

Alec [ @bowstrung ]

“If someone did ask questions, what would you tell them?” Alec wondered if he would say he wasn’t seeing anyone. He wished more than anything that they didn’t have to hide, but it was the truth of their lives. “I can’t help it, Jace. Our relationship is very complicated. More complicated than most complicated relationships and I can’t help but worry that you’ll get bored of me or want to be in public with someone that you don’t have to hide with.” He ducked his head as he rambled, feeling guilt for feeling these things. Alec knew that he had no reason really to doubt their relationship, but it was something that he did. He looked up quickly at him then when he spoke and gave him an offended sort of look. “Why would I want anyone else? You’re all I’ve ever wanted. You’re the only person who’s every truly understood me. Though don’t tell Isabelle that, she might be upset. But it’s true. I do love you Jace, so much. You’re the perfect man for me too. I just…wish that our situation was different, is all.” Maybe one day it would be, but that wouldn’t be for a very long time. “I’m sorry, I’ll try not to think on it anymore.”

Jace tilted his head. “I would say I have someone special and that’s all they need to know.” he said honestly. “I know that this…us…I know it’s complicated. It’s risky and I would rather have to hide than never know what it’s like to love you.” he explained. He gave a little laugh, running his fingers through Alec’s hair. “I’m not going anywhere, and you clearly aren’t gong anywhere. So obviously, we’re always going to have each other, and no one is going to change that.” he replied, leaning to brush his lips against the other man’s. “Tell me what to do to make those thoughts go away, Alec.”