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Derek gently held Seth, leaning to breathe in Seth’s scent. There was a new, underlying scent that Derek recognized as newly changing wolf. It both comforted and scared him to cat h it on his boyfriend. “I know it’s not really me. What those drugs did to me…that’s what you’re scared of. And I’m so sorry that it happened.” He melted into the kiss, fighting the insginct to pull him closer. Seth’s next words finally made a laugh escape him and he leaned to kiss him more firmly. “Seth, I would willingly die if it protected you. I meant it when I said I couldn’t handle losing you.” He assured. “Here is where you need me, where you feel safe, so here is where I’m going to be.” He carefully lifted a hand, making sure to show Seth there were no claws before running his go hers through dark hair. “I love you, Seth Mitchell. You are my heart and soul. I would be nothing without you.”

“I don’t ever want you to have to willingly die. Not for me. Because I couldn’t handle losing you either. I really wouldn’t.” He snorted,
“Careful there, Derek. That sounds insanely close to a marriage
proposal.” He teased, humming contently at the fingers combing through
his hair. “I love you..” Seth smiled, kissing him again. “And you’re right. I do feel safe right here in your arms. Where I belong.” 

Derek continued to comfort Seth through touch, knowing the change from human to wolf qould be helped by it as well as Seth’s natural reaction to it. He kissed back softly, gently wrapping his arms around Seth and kissing his temple. “Yeah? Would you say yes if it was?” He asked with a playfulness in his voice, trying to make Seth smile. Having hurt Seth hurt Derek deep in his soul, and he hated himself more than ever even as Seth told him to stay. “Then I’ll stay right here, help as best I can with your change.” He swore. “I’ll be at your side as long as you’ll have me.”

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The human in Derek wanted to flinch as Seth snared him, but the wolf wanted to coddle and scent an apologize. He slowly released his legs, moving to carefully lay a hand on Seth’s leg. “I love you, too.” He answered quietly. He was still for a moment before opening his arms. “Can I hold you?” He asked, trying so hard not to panic at thw thought of Seth telling him no. Derek hated himself right now more than he ever had in his life, and yet he wanted to curl Seth in his arms and just hold him until Seth healed, which was coming along quickly and that only meant one thing.

Seth would turn on the next full moon.

“Its okay if you don’t trust me, I just…I want you to know you’re safe with me, no matter what happened. I would do anything to keep you safe. Absolutely anything.”

“Y-Yeah, of course you can.” Seth replied before moving to crawl into Derek’s arms, settling himself comfortably. Seth licked his lip as he turned in Derek’s arms to face him. “I trust you. I trust everything about you. I’m… I’m sorry if it’ll take some time for me to not be scared when I’m around you, but just know it’s not you I’m afraid of.” He wasn’t sure if that made any sense, but it did to him and he seemed to be okay with that. Seth hesitantly leaned forward, pressing their lips together. “Even running away?” He asked softly, letting himself lean against the other contently. “Because I don’t like that idea. I want you to stay right here and cuddle the fuck out of me.” Seth huffed and wrapped his arms around Derek’s neck.

Derek gently held Seth, leaning to breathe in Seth’s scent. There was a new, underlying scent that Derek recognized as newly changing wolf. It both comforted and scared him to cat h it on his boyfriend. “I know it’s not really me. What those drugs did to me…that’s what you’re scared of. And I’m so sorry that it happened.” He melted into the kiss, fighting the insginct to pull him closer. Seth’s next words finally made a laugh escape him and he leaned to kiss him more firmly. “Seth, I would willingly die if it protected you. I meant it when I said I couldn’t handle losing you.” He assured. “Here is where you need me, where you feel safe, so here is where I’m going to be.” He carefully lifted a hand, making sure to show Seth there were no claws before running his go hers through dark hair. “I love you, Seth Mitchell. You are my heart and soul. I would be nothing without you.”

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Derek tensed, unable to look at Seth for the moment. “I…I broke my promise.” he said, his voice betraying him and breaking even as he tried to keep it even. “I swore I would never hurt you. And I could have killed you. I should have known it was you even with the drugs they’d given me.” His legs lifted so he could wrap his arms around him. “I’m so sorry, Seth. I never wanted to force this on you.” He felt like he was breaking inside, that once forgotten thoughhtabout being cursed coming right back with a force so strong it made his chest feel heavy and it was hard to breathe. “I don’t blame you if you hate me. I can’t blame you for it. But…” But I still love you even if I’m a monster. he finished in his mind, hiding his face to try and wipe away the tears.

“Are you fucking serious right now, dude? You should have known it was me?! Are the drugs still fucking with you?” He asked, stepping closer. “Derek there was no way you could have known. I don’t hate you.” Seth whispered, brows scrunching up in disgust at the thought of hating Derek. “You didn’t kill me, though. And even if you had, I wouldn’t have hated you. I know how drugs can affect your way of thinking. I know first hand what it can do to you and I know that had you been in your right mind, none of this would have happened. I love you.” Even though it was obvious how scared Seth was, he made his way even closer to Derek, allowing himself to sit beside him and nuzzled into his side. “And you can’t go around feeling bad about any of this because the others are great, but I need you to help me through all this.”

The human in Derek wanted to flinch as Seth snared him, but the wolf wanted to coddle and scent an apologize. He slowly released his legs, moving to carefully lay a hand on Seth’s leg. “I love you, too.” He answered quietly. He was still for a moment before opening his arms. “Can I hold you?” He asked, trying so hard not to panic at thw thought of Seth telling him no. Derek hated himself right now more than he ever had in his life, and yet he wanted to curl Seth in his arms and just hold him until Seth healed, which was coming along quickly and that only meant one thing.

Seth would turn on the next full moon.

“Its okay if you don’t trust me, I just…I want you to know you’re safe with me, no matter what happened. I would do anything to keep you safe. Absolutely anything.”

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Seth had every right to be angry at Derek, but found that he couldn’t. He didn’t know what the other had been going through, and maybe trying to help had been a bad idea but it wasn’t something he could change now and even if he could, he doubted that he’d want to. After convincing everyone he was fine, Seth shakily made his way up to the roof, keeping a distance from Derek. “H-Hey.” He stated softly, crossing his arms as if he was trying to hold himself together. “It… It’s not your fault. What happened. It’s not your fault.” He wasn’t really sure if he was trying to convince Derek or himself more, though.

Derek tensed, unable to look at Seth for the moment. “I…I broke my promise.” he said, his voice betraying him and breaking even as he tried to keep it even. “I swore I would never hurt you. And I could have killed you. I should have known it was you even with the drugs they’d given me.” His legs lifted so he could wrap his arms around him. “I’m so sorry, Seth. I never wanted to force this on you.” He felt like he was breaking inside, that once forgotten thoughhtabout being cursed coming right back with a force so strong it made his chest feel heavy and it was hard to breathe. “I don’t blame you if you hate me. I can’t blame you for it. But…” But I still love you even if I’m a monster. he finished in his mind, hiding his face to try and wipe away the tears.

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Derek sat out on the roof, eyes red from crying. He was home, but he didn’t want to be. He’d rather be dead than anywhere near the loft. He hadn’t meant to attack Seth, let alone bite him. They’d done a great job of bandaging and keeping Seth alive, but Derek couldn’t bear to be in the same room. He’d sworn to Seth he would never hurt him, and yet when he’d been kidnapped, trapped in a room surrounded by moonstone and drugged heavily, his first instinct had been to escape by any means, and it was too late to fix it. He was certain Seth would hate him, and it hurt so deep the only thing the alpha could do was sit on the roof where they’d shared so many nights just talking and cry. 

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