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Seth sighed as he kissed him back. “You won’t.” Seth promised, his arms wrapping around Derek’s neck. “I want this. I need to be able to do this with you. And – And I know even if I can’t you’ll still love me and stay with me and this isn’t about that. It’s not.” He admitted, shaking his head. “I wouldn’t do it if it was about that. I don’t know how to explain why I need to be able to do this.” Seth pressed his lips back to Derek’s and nipped his bottom lip playfully. “Can you just… not go to slow at first? Like don’t like… drag it out, I guess. Like the first few minutes?”

Derek listened to him, nodding a little. “I think I understand.” he offered, kissing back and letting his hands wander over Seth’s body. “If you can’t, just tell me to stop and you know I will.” he swore, nuzzling his neck and kissing at his pulse, reminding himself to go quicker than before but not too fast. While one hand moved to hold himself up, the other moved to dip between Seth’s legs and tease his entrance. 

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“I’m sorry.” He murmured again before a strangled laugh left his lips. “I know you’re not. I just… I want to be able to give you everything you want. I want to be able to do these things.” Seth found himself frowning. “C-Could we try again? I need a few moments but – but I can do this. I need to be able to do this.”

Derek frowned a little at how affected his boyfriend was. “Hey, hey, calm down.” he murmured, leaning to kiss him. He waited a moment until Seth had calmed and then leaned in to nuzzle. “We can try, but if I push you too far…Seth I can’t handle that.”